The Happiness Project Pt. I

8:02 PM Spence 1 Comments

"Now and then it's good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy."
 -Guillame Apollinaire

To all of you who care, I did it. I finally made the decision.

I am going to be happy, damn it.

For the last 25 years, I have waited for this moment. However, it's not what I expected. I have thought a lot about it this last year. I remember being young and looking forward to some time in my future (probably my mid-20s, because that seemed like a good time frame) and planning when I would be happy.

That's when I would finally have everything I always wanted.

Now I know it's not like that. We've all heard the cliché that happiness is a journey and not a destination. Yeah yeah I know... I'm pretty much a walking cliché lately.

In essence, this is true--hard as it may be to accept. If you know me well enough, you know how much I love Abraham Lincoln. He said,

"People are just as happy as they make up their minds to be."

This last year has been the hardest of my life. I'm not trying to exaggerate, be dramatic or receive attention or pity. I don't need it. The statement is just the truth.

With that being said, I'm going to take Abe's advice. About 6 months ago, I made a list of all the things that make me happy, and I promised myself to only focus on things I wrote on that list. Simple enough, right? Why didn't I think of that before?

Point is, I am not the person who focuses on having happiness in the future anymore. I want it now. Right now. We all know I'm suuuuper patient. I know that everything cannot be perfect at the moment, but that's why I've decided to focus on one thing at a time. This post will be an on-going list of things that I've learned. I don't expect anyone to read it, but it's here if it helps.

I don't expect that I will instantly become the happiest of people.

I don't expect that every decision I make will lead me to happiness.

I don't expect to pretend that every moment is perfect.

I do expect that I will become a happier person as I focus on one thing at a time, and that's what I intend to do. I will focus on the things that make me a better, stronger and overall, happier person.

Stay tuned, bloggers. This is going to be a loooooong project.

1 comment:

  1. Love...seriously love this! And you :)
    This year is going to be the year of Spencer!!!